One Friday in August I was at home while Arsen was at work. We had plans to go out both Friday and Saturday and I knew I would be having a few drinks. On a bit of a whim I decided to take a pregnancy test, just to be safe. I didn't think much about it because I had only been off of birth control for a very short time and I had heard it normally takes several months for all of it to leave your system and whatnot. So I took the test, did a few things, and went to get in the shower. At that moment I remembered that I had taken the test, so I went to check the results. And two bright pink lines were staring back at me.
My reactions are always strange when something good happens...I started cracking up laughing. I also laughed when Arsen proposed, so I guess it's kinda my thing. I'm also quite happy that the baby didn't have ears yet because a few not so polite words flew out of my mouth....I was just SO incredibly shocked that I couldn't believe it. I was overjoyed and terrified all at once. And then I realized that I had just a couple of hours to get things ready to break the news to Arsen. I've always wanted to let him know in some fun and creative way, but I hadn't even started planning for it because I just assumed I would have several months.
I hopped in the shower, and was out faster than I've ever been in my life. I actually forgot to wash the conditioner out of my hair I was rushing so fast, so I had a really awful hair day for the rest of the day. Somehow I still didn't believe the test, so I went to buy another one. I ran to CVS, came home to take the test and finish getting ready. Surprise, surprise, that test was positive too. So I ran out to Buy Buy Baby to find something to surprise Arsen with. At this point I had less than two hours to get everything ready, so I was running around like crazy. I couldn't find anything there, so I headed over to Babies R Us. I finally found a few things there, so I rushed home to get things set up.
I don't think I've ever been so fidgety and jumpy as I was waiting for him to get home. When he finally opened the back door, I was sitting as casually as I could on the couch. Of course Addie was freaking out and jumping all over him like she hadn't seen him in days, so I tried to act like all was normal. After maybe 10 seconds I couldn't handle it anymore and I said "There's a surprise for you on the bed". Being the typical man that he is he responded with "Is it something dirty?". HA. If he only knew.
He walked in the room to this:
Yes, by the time he got home I had taken three test. And I took two more over the next two days. Five tests still didn't have me totally convinced...until two weeks later when we had our first doctors appointment and heard the tiny heartbeat!
Needless to say he was completely shocked, just as I was. He kept saying "Wait, are you for real? Is this for real?". We just couldn't believe it had happened so fast!
In the almost two months since that day it's all been pretty surreal. We had our second appointment last Thursday and heard the heartbeat yet again...somehow it just doesn't seem real yet! Maybe it's because I haven't started showing yet, but I'm constantly convinced that the entire thing has been in my imagination. If it wasn't for the constant nausea and exhaustion I wouldn't believe it!
The fun continued over the next couple of weeks when we got to break the news to our parents. I was incredibly protective of the news, and we didn't tell anyone but our family and very best friends until this past weekend. But each time we told someone it seemed just a little more real.
Any of you mommies out there have the same reaction? I've read several things that say that until your belly starts to pop it's hard to believe there's really something in there...Arsen thinks I'm crazy, but I'm naturally a super paranoid person, so I suppose this is to be expected. But even though I get a little crazy every once in awhile I'm still completely overjoyed! I never thought I'd be excited about getting big and pregnant, but I'm actually looking forward to it...oh, how things are changing around here!