I mean...come on. He's pretty great.
And it's totally up to me and Arsen to take care of it. All of it.
The discipline. The teaching "right" and "wrong". The healthy food choices. The safety. All. Of. It.
And I'm not gonna lie to you, I'm a little terrified. I've been a pretty freaking fantastic mom so far, if you ask me. I have put my heart and soul, my blood, sweat and tears, every ounce of who I am, into this little boy. He is my entire world. But none of what I've done so far has been "hard". Sure, sleep deprivation is exhausting, breastfeeding a baby with teeth can hurt like a mother, and changing a billion diapers ain't fun. But this. This is a whole new world.
How on earth do we form a human into a thoughtful, caring, considerate, loving, patient, humble, brilliant, kind, successful person? How do you do that? When I can't figure out how to make him understand that grunting and shaking and screaming "Ah! Ah! Ah!" shrilly, over and over, isn't the way to get more food....then how do I teach him to be a functioning, thriving member of society?
Suddenly I have the desire to download 32 parenting books to my iPad and lock myself in a room and not come out until I have read them all and can officially be considered an "expert" on parenting. But I don't think that's necessarily the answer.
I know what type of parent I want to be. I know I believe in gentle parenting, in parenting out of love, patience, and kindness. I don't believe in spanking or yelling or instilling fear (I was spanked, I know billions of people who spank, but I personally don't want to...but no judgment!). But how on earth do you get an 8 month old baby to understand why he shouldn't throw a tantrum? Why he shouldn't eat the dog's rawhide? Why he shouldn't dive head first off the bed? My poor brain. It's so confused.
Parents of the world, please, please share with me your best parenting a baby-turning-into-a-real-human advice. I beg of you! I know I'll get it all figured out somehow, but where to begin? I'm just not totally sure. I will love you forever if you have some secret trick or some amazing parenting book that I just absolutely must read. Help a mama out!